Sunday, February 28, 2010

...

Feel irresistibly happy.

At the same time, feel upset when I see people being rude, easily getting resentful and not willing to collaborate.

I think I can get along with any person who knows his value, realises his ambitions, and does not give up in front of any obstacle. Unfortunately, I seldom meet these people.

I was happy this week when I got to know that Jake, my MCP, is AIESEC International Vice President elect 2010-11. At the same time I was sad at the thought that our organisation gets smaller and smaller in leaders. I agree that once you get engaged with AIESEC, your life begins to change tremendously. You might not notice it, but it is happening. When time comes to its logical end, you need to finish your AIESEC life, AIESEC experience. If you had a quite long term AIESEC life, you become a true change agent- you act to make the world a better place but not acted upon. Even if you were not active in AIESEC, you anyway strive to change the world. This is an ongoing process.

However, I am so much in doubt this week regarding some things happening in my organisation. Especially, when I see and hear unwillingness to cooperate just because the weather is terrible. (Figurative meaning) (Well, not only figurative meaning. Look outside at Riga streets and you'll see melting snow, mud and rain. Spring is coming. Renewal :)

Friday, February 26, 2010

Happy Independence Day, dear Estonia!

President's speech on February 24

The following is the text of the speech held by Toomas Hendrik Ilves at the Independence Day concert in Vanemuine Theatre in Tartu on February 24 as published on the President's website.

extracted from HERE

Dear Estonian people,

Dear Friends,

Ever since it dawned on our 19th century forebears that Estonians are equal to other nations, we have found our path strewn with obstacles.

We have overcome these obstacles. Although often they were higher than the barriers others had to surmount, we succeeded.
At every major turn in the road, naysayers appeared. Milestones such as the first song festival, the Vanemuine Theatre in which we are gathered today, the War of Independence, the founding and restoration of an independent state, the use of Estonian as the language of instruction at the university level – all were said to be impossible, that Estonians would never succeed.

The sceptics were wrong. We did succeed.

Even in the worst of times, it is customary for Estonians to come together on the 24th of February, in person or in spirit, to think about what must be done better – by the government, but not only by the government; by our fellow citizens, but not only our fellow citizens. Above all, we must think about what we ourselves can do.

If not here, if not now, when?

My dear Estonian people.

The most troubling problem currently we need to solve is unemployment. In the good years of economic growth, we came to believe that the unemployed themselves were to blame.

This is no longer the case. Companies laid off people not because of poor performance but because of their own economic problems.

That is why we all – the government, the private sector, organisations and churches, political parties and families alike – must seek to curtail and ease the hardship faced by people and their loved ones.

There are no simple remedies. We need to look for solutions inside ideas and behind taboos. We must ensure that the economic and social consequences of unemployment do not leave wounds that cannot be healed.

Growing unemployment is not something that crept up on us silently. There is no consolation to be found in the fact that some countries are in even worse shape. But that realization does lead to a valuable insight: our problems are not unique.

We do need to be unique in how we solve our problems, for no one else will do it for us.

Let us not deceive ourselves with the hope that the unemployment rate will start falling quickly. Twenty years ago, Finland was hit by a recession just as widespread. The country returned to economic growth two years later, but it took six years for employment to recover.

We have a duty to help the unemployed preserve their self-dignity. Receiving assistance is nothing to be ashamed of. But not lending a hand is.

I currently see no other option but to prepare for the worst and do everything in our power to ease the economic impact of unemployment, and particularly its social impact.

A substantial amount has been done, but it is not enough. We should realize that the job market cannot be controlled by the system we have designed; rather, the system must adapt to the current situation in the job market.

Yes, it is true that unlike in the last major crisis, we now have unemployment insurance. Because of it, we are in a better situation. Many people, however, have been without a job for so long that they now find themselves that their insurance has run out and now lack any significant unemployment benefits.

We will have to look for ways of extending the period that benefits can be drawn from the Unemployment Fund – if there is a way of doing so while adhering to the necessary requirement of a balanced budget.

Poverty, one of the most harrowing consequences of unemployment, hits children especially hard. The Republic of Estonia’s family benefits are, of course, meant for children, but if parents must also live off of this sum, then it is time to consider additional benefits.

We have found support from the European Union’s assistance measures. Wage support and tax incentives are reasonable steps when it comes to giving jobs to people with less competitive qualifications. I encourage employers to make maximum use of these opportunities. Entrepreneurs are the ones who give people work.

We should not fear subsidized employment, which has generated much controversy. The point of such jobs is to keep people accustomed to going to work and to prevent them from lapsing into apathy or despair. They are not a solution to the root problems of unemployment, of course.

One lesson that can be drawn from the crisis is that unemployment is not evenly distributed. For instance, IT company executives complain that they do not have enough people. There is a shortage of people in science and engineering.

This is a clear signal for students, parents and Estonia’s education leaders: do not avoid subjects that might currently seem harder and more demanding.

My dear fellow Estonians.

Today, at the dawn of a new decade, we have to take a look back at our nearly twenty years of restored independence and ask ourselves honestly:

Which future-oriented and thus indispensable issues yet need to be decided?

As I see it, we need to show more resolve in the field of education and public administration.

I note with growing concern that the desire to modernize Estonia’s educational system and the education we provide is becoming bogged down in political conflict and opposition from interest groups.

When all roads to reform lead to a dead end, everything seems dismal. All we see are the potential losses; the victories become an awkward subject.

But if we had been this fearful and hesitant 18 years ago – had we invented excuses to postpone currency reform – then I am afraid we would still be using the rouble in Estonia.

Indecisiveness itself is tantamount to defeat, and those whose voice cannot be heard have the most to lose: students, tomorrow’s business leaders and workforce, artists and composers, future mothers and fathers, the stewards and champions of Estonia’s values and the nation’s progress. The people who keep the Estonian language and culture vital lose out.

The quality of education comes down to one absolute criterion: are Estonian students and their skills and knowledge internationally competitive or not? Can they do their job better than their counterparts in a neighbouring country?

I do not mean the best. I mean the average.

Second. Administrative reform has long since become a tired refrain to a sad song, a byword for Estonia’s few yet no less significant failures.

For some strange reason, any discussion about the reasonable administration of local affairs ends up in the redrawing of municipal boundaries. We pursue emotional or symbolic victories while trying to hold on to our little piece of power, money or land, and we lose sight of the bigger picture. We forget that a given rural municipality’s largest employer is the municipal government itself, or that for a long time there has been no daycare, no school or store. It may well happen that the most important consideration for decisions affecting the future of the community is the bus schedule.

There is no point in having government on either the national or local level if we lack the means and skills with which to govern. It discredits the meaning of government and the Republic itself.

And the people are not waiting. They are catching the bus – either to a larger city or leaving Estonia. Those unable or unwilling to leave, stay and suffer.

They suffer, because the humane principle set forth in Estonian constitution – that everyone has a right to quality public services regardless of where they live – has not yet reached many corners and parts of Estonia.

Estonia deserves better. Among other things, Estonia deserves to abandon the notion that, during election season, politicians are exempt from the duty of making the necessary, reasonable decisions.

If the helm is abandoned in favour of drifting with the current, we will soon reach stagnation. And we will find statesmanship replaced by a cynical calculation degrading to citizens.

Dear friends,

One of the lessons of the current economic crisis is clear: populist electioneering and political one-upmanship comes at a price paid by the Estonian people and the country we share.

It is one year until the next general elections. As a citizen and a voter, I would like to see political parties reach a reasonable agreement on the topics they will focus on in the upcoming campaigns.

I feel that these topics should be Estonian public administration; the future of education; harmonizing tax and budgetary policy with society’s long-term needs; and energy security.

We also need consensus on rules of play, the methods used to amend legislation.

Many top Estonian lawyers, legal scholars and influential thinkers have called for an end to amending legislation for light and transient causes. Estonia’s legal system is, by in large, complete, and Estonia is in practice a state governed by the rule of law. Let us now allow traditions, jurisprudence and practice to take shape.

For this reason, we must not waste time on writing useless legislative texts. Laws are a means, not an end. It is the same way with money.

The quality of legislation is a separate question. Sometimes legal acts contain careless errors, other times logical contradictions. Sometimes they are in conflict with the Constitution.

All of this suggests that our parliament could be more attentive to its main task.

A month ago, I admonished Estonia’s journalists to be more accurate. I asked them to refrain from attacking parliament as an institution. Instead they should focus on specific individuals and their errors.

Today I would like to take this opportunity to appeal to the consciences of the members of the 11th Riigikogu. You were elected for a four-year term. But the Riigikogu was created to last for all time.

By upholding your reputation, you safeguard the Riigikogu and, along with it, democracy in Estonia. So please – take your own colleagues to task if it seems that they do not know how to, or do not want to, shoulder the responsibility vested in their seats. Whether the errors of fellow MPs involve deficient legislation or improper conduct, take them to task, and do so publicly.

My dear Estonian people.

We know that there can be no going back to the earlier period of economic growth founded on inexpensive loan capital.

We know that there is no way to get rich by borrowing other people’s money. We know that quality means more than speed.

Looking ahead honestly to Estonia’s future and our possibilities requires a fundamental decision. More precisely, an answer to the question: What kind of Estonia do we want? Enterprising or paternalistic?

Right now, in the grip of the recession and high unemployment, we see that many people need help coping with everyday life.

Besides governing and making laws, helping people in need is one of the most fundamental duties of the state.

It is the right thing to do during a recession. But how will we act when things start getting better again?

When we read news from some European Union member states, we see how problems are ballooning for welfare states that try to mend social safety nets with borrowed money. They are forced to look for different kinds of solutions. They are forced to bring the state’s role into conformity with the economic reality.

This is why I believe that Estonia’s cause will be advanced best by investments, incentives and grants that reward doing and enterprise, innovation and creativity.

Estonia will be led forward by enterprising and educated citizens who create new values – be they in business, science or culture. It is such citizens that we must train our efforts on raising, as soon as the first and most difficult days of the crisis are over.

It will require an altogether more serious approach to education and the money we are prepared to pay for it. It means focusing on public health, our people’s lifespan and the possibilities afforded by our pension system.

Will we open Estonia to foreign workers or work longer ourselves? This is the question we will have to answer.

These are not easy choices, but it would be irresponsible to ignore them. We cannot allow ourselves that. These are choices that must be made when we have emerged from the crisis. But we must start to think about them now.

Dear fellow citizens.

Today is Estonia’s birthday. It would be unjust to leave unmentioned those things we have done well, better than in years past.

Last year, 100 people lost their lives on Estonia’s roads. Yes, one hundred is a large number. But just a few years ago that number was twice as large.

When we compare the number of what are called preventable deaths – accidents, crimes, fires and drownings – with the same statistic from 15 years ago, the number has decreased many times over.

These numbers attest to the fact that negligence, malice and foolhardiness are being supplanted by a greater amount of stability and compassion.

Second, we have the habit of criticizing politicians – I did so myself a moment ago – for not reaching consensus on important issues. Fortunately there are exceptions.

I consider one to be the goal to adopt the common European currency, the Euro, in Estonia. I recognize the statesmanlike sense of responsibility our parties have displayed and I laud Estonian media for their sense of balance. On this issue, we have thus far succeeded in suppressing our urge to get the better of each other politically. We have not given in to the urge to turn minor details into insurmountable obstacles.

Naturally the euro will bring more investments and new jobs. But the euro alone will not solve any one of our problems.

It is like accession to NATO or the European Union. The euro will boost our self-confidence and sense of security, by underlining the fact that our own money and outside investment will not lose value.

It is not only foreign investors who need that assurance, but any one of the everyday folks who have traded in kroons at currency exchange booths on the basis of groundless rumours.

Exerting real effort toward the euro gives us the spine and character we need to resist the temptation to seek populist solutions.

The decision on whether we will get the euro is due in a few months. Everyone has been a part of it and contributed, in the form of lower wages and more meagre benefits.

My heartfelt acknowledgement goes out to every citizen and fellow countrymen for stoically bearing that burden – for understanding that today’s sacrifices will pay off in the future. I thank Estonia’s taxpayers who have not resorted in these troubled times to looking for ways of evading taxes.

Ladies and gentlemen,

Ten months and a week from now, when Estonia becomes a member of the European monetary union, we will be the most integrated state in northern Europe. I repeat: the most integrated.

Of the countries in Northern Europe, only Estonia is a participant in all four integration programs involving Western democracies – the euro zone, the Schengen acquis, the European Union and NATO.

That means Estonia has never found itself so firmly at the centre of Europe. Never. This gives us an immense sense of security. It also gives us the responsibility of knowing what is going on in our four common spaces. It imposes on us the obligation to participate in the dialogue, if we want to be a functioning part of the centre of Europe.

Unlike a number of countries that have already adopted the euro, Estonia already now pursues the kind of policy that the well-being of the euro zone requires. We are at the centre of Europe because our way of doing things is the European way, as it was in fact, meant to be.

Estonia’s credibility and trustworthiness are the most priceless foreign exchange asset we have.
My dear Estonian people.

Independence Day is not a party but a family get-together. This is the right place for taking stock of what has been done – the triumphs, the missteps, and what is yet to come.

This is a time for discussing among ourselves. There is no point in boasting, or acting as if everything is just fine. There is no point in trying to shift the blame.

Times of crisis tend to breed discontent and the illusion that these are the darkest days we have ever known.

No, these are not the darkest of days. In spite of it all, Estonia and Estonians are in fact in better off than they have been at any time in the last century.

But if we want the country we have built ourselves to be even stronger and better, we must continue to work and strive. We must give up the fatalism, more befitting of an adolescent, that things are out of our hands, that someone else is calling the shots. Nothing is fated, nothing “anyway”. Not even the regaining of our independence was predestined, not something that would have happened one way or another.

Back in the 19th century, people said that Estonians would “anyway” never succeed in instituting Estonian-language university education. But we did.

A hundred years ago, people said that Estonians “anyway” would never win the War of Independence or get on with the responsibility of independence. But we did.

Twenty years ago; we heard that Estonians “any way” would not regain their freedom or succeed in being a viable free nation. But we did.

“Anyway” we were never supposed to get into the European Union or NATO. But we did.

Nothing happens of its own accord – not war, not the so called selling out of Estonia by our partners, or anything else espoused by a narrow worldview.

Besides a lack of resources, the economic crisis also results in a feeling of helplessness, that we cannot do anything one way or another. This, unfortunately, is sustained by the myths we have created of our past.

What is more important – 700 years of serfdom or 92 years of statehood?
What is more important – 50 years of occupation or 20 years of statehood built in common cause?

Does our national identity lie in how much we have suffered as a people? Or does it lie in what we have done ourselves? Will we let the past define us, or will we grasp where we are today and the opportunities of tomorrow?

Each of us has the power to determine Estonia’s destiny as a nation. We need not dream of someone else’s wise and judicious hand at the helm.

Let us acknowledge openly and proudly that as a nation, we have truly succeeded.

Let us acknowledge that if we continue to make wise and judicious choices, we shall succeed in solving even the problems to which quick and easy solutions are not yet visible.

Let us acknowledge that by making difficult decisions, we have laid the foundation for recovery.

Today, with a new morning already glimmering on the horizon, Estonia stands within reach of the best possible ways forward – this time on the strength of what Estonia herself has wrought, not foreign capital.

Our forebears founded this country 92 years ago because they wanted the right to decide, to act and to stand on their own. They wanted the same for us, their children, grandchildren and future generations.

Today we can desire no less. Nothing has changed in this regard: it can all still be done in this country we have created together. This is what the Republic of Estonia is for. Happy Independence Day, and long live Estonia!

Flash

200th day in Latvia.

Documenting 200th day, I had experienced a little bit of happiness:

- Thank you to the greatest AIESECers from around the world who have been proactive today in TMU class on Recruitment for GEN2010. I have increased level of committment and responsibility.
- Thank you to my super duper wise OCP Recruitment in AIESEC Riga. You definitely made my day, Serafima! Thank you Lasma for a joyful atmosphere you have created in the office. I wish girls you could visit the office oftener :) Or we spend time together.
- Thank you to an online meeting with AIESEC in Russia leaders, FACIlitating team for Regional Exchange Conference (REC) that I am going to attend soon. Thank you because it was so splendid hear your voices again, Zhenya, Masha, Dinar and Natasha!
- Thank you to one coolest member in AIESEC Riga for such a great hug you gave me today! Love you!
- Thank you to my friend who recalled good memories from our past.
- Thank you to the bus driver who turned on lively music on my way back home. I smiled hundreds times.
- Final thank you goes to snow that again danced today in the air. It just made me realise how fast time has gone. Just recently I was complaining of coldness and exhaustion from winter, and it was Jan. Today is already Feb 25. Time waits for no one...

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Smile, darling :)

Just as a reminder to myself: Spring is in the air. Aha, even in Riga. I even saw a sparkling sinshine today. Could not believe myself I would see the sun here this month. I even heard birds singing. Heard them myself. Every single beat of this spring rhythm. And I smile to myself. And then caught myself at a thought that I did smile :)
Another good news: I sent a few positive responses to different people. One of them is Gosia from Poland who will facilitate at our conference in April. Laura from our beloved neighbour country is also IN the team! Waiting for a few more :)
Hit of the day, actually, hit of the week is that we- the TMU- officially opened our Online Education. Today three of us from TMU- Kay, Sandra and I held the first class, From Selection to Goal Setting. Kay was a pioneer in these 2 month-classes, and we were at the back stage. Kay, you did a good job! So I am again proud of our GEN2010 team! Keep the spirit up, girls! (Not surprisingly, in AIESEC the majority of members are girls. Only the hard core guys "survive" :D )
Last but not the least is this- READ please (just click on the word READ). I knew I was right :)

... Well, I am a little bit happy.

Monday, February 22, 2010

What Really Matters?

Another week has just faded away with a final question: What Really Matters in Life?
The Week has been vague: so many things to do, so many people to talk to silently, clock is ticking and I am trying to reach unattainable/abstract/inanimate.
The Week has been quite difficult, unspeakable, allien, dry.
The Week has been cold.
The Week has finished with a fantastic self comprehension!
The Week has turned out to be more productive in its second half.
The "Not-Understandable-Week" has been just good.
Fabulous highlights of this week:
- My Mum's B'day! I'm the happiest child because I have a wonderful supportive lifetime friend, my mum. The tenderest woman that knows me better than I do, the smartest mother who can predict 10 steps in advance in my decision, breath taking beautiful woman who had become my life story, the best mother who has always given me a choice to make in any decision I have taken so far. I wish the world is full of such mothers more and more!
- I am going to St Petesburg- aka St Pete or Piter- to facilitate at Regional Exchange Conference. Amazingly, but I will meet with current Local Committee Presidents (LCPs) and Member Committe Vice Presidents (MC VPs) of AIESEC in Russia whom I met in 2008 at ProMS Russia National Conference. I am happy that I am going to another conference in another country! Plus, I will meet some of my friends there whom I wanted to see very much! Double plus it is St Pete!
- Design of the spring Trainer the Trainers National conference in AIESEC in Latvia is exciting: I have some cool ideas, I have almost selected the trainers for this inspiring learning event for mid April 2010. Unfortunately, 2 trainers whom I desperately wanted to bring to AIESEC Latvia won't come- time, money and time :( Keep searching, dear :)
- Another exciting AIESEC Baltic conference SYNERGY will be right after I return from St Pete. Lovely Baltic delegates, a site which I suppose will become my "favourite place at Lithuanian conferences" :)
- Lina is back :) Malaysian adventures, astonishing pictures, smell of freedom- oh, just a super duper vacation for Lina! So happy for her!
- Trying to catch the time, I am reading 3 books parallely. And I become proud of myself because I also apply the knowledge I gain from these books. Aha, this is the way I am- modest and honest :)
- Have become more thoughtful this week: there is an old lady that every morning or afternoon cleans the streets, the paths away from heavy snow. Every day. Snow keeps falling down every day making the traffic slower and loading this old lady's day. But even these tons of snow do not stop her. She is persisent, dedicated and pushy. I am amazed!
- I can't believe I can be super productive when it needs to be! This week whole AIESEC world had been watching Global Leaders Summit (GLS) or International Presidents' Meeting (IPM) in Tunisia where we have (s)elected our President of AIESEC International (PAI) for 2010-11 Hugo Pereira. One of the most terrific things AIESEC International is doing this year is connecting the whole network with International Congresses virtually, giving the voice to the youth and yes, letting virtual delegates to dance quick- moving AIESEC dances :) So a lot of work had to be done before IPM, and here in our loveliest TMU: GEN 2010 team we have been working this week like hell! Seriously, we have gone the extra mile, but we did it! Of course, it is too early to talk about achievements, but we really have done a very good job! TeaM, I am really proud of us! Additionally, another subteam in our TMU is already celebrating our first fruits of success :) At IPM Leadership Development Programme has been launched. Well, when we have been working on its draft during our physical meeting in Rotterdam we sometimes felt insane; I just cannot describe all emotions that we have experienced that time. Unforgettable team experience!
- Deciding what is good in life: to stay oneself and not wear different masks for different life shows, or to lie to the audience and pretend. Life is just a long term performance, a circus, an entertainment. Want to say I'm mistaken? Please answer then when you look into the mirror whom do you see there?
- To conclude, the week has showed me the answer to my personal question: Do I need a mentor? Maybe I need, but already not so desperately as it sounded so some time ago. I still can control the situation and my life. Sounds pretty much convincing. Let's see how it goes next week.

Monday, February 15, 2010

60 l 1 l 60 l 360 l 24 l 52 l ...

My mind has just gotten insane: the clock on my computer screen changed 23:59 to 00:00, from Feb 14,Sun to Feb 15, Mon.
What's so insane you probably ask?
Lem'me hear your thoughts first please.

Are you rich?

I have missed Sunday today. My Sun with its cozy morning, winter afternoon and warm blanket evening. Sun that is only mine. =(
Every day we are given $86, 400 in the Time bank. However, some people are smart and efficiently use this resource. Others, like me for instance, are not careful with it .
However, even if I worked whole day today I do not consider it as a waste of time. This is why:
- The article my friend shared with me reassured me there are lots of people in the world who ask the same questions as I do about our Universe.
- It's a Valentine's day ( Happy Valentine to everyone who celebrates it!), a new modern occasion in the societies of non-Western countries. For instance, here in Latvia people do not celebrate it everywhere. In comparison, the Kazakhstani society marks this day in all public places: flowers, chocolates, places in cafes/restaurants, etc are overpriced, you meet happy girls with flowers in hands whereas other girls are jealous and complain that they hate this day ( poor ones!), guys pick up girls for a date or also say they hate this day and do not understand why it gets an incredible attention from mass media. Surprisingly, I read today one note with a quite loud claim: we should not celebrate Valentine's day in Kazakhstan as it provokes premarital relations that lead to immorality in the society, and what's more it is not written in Islam! I apologise but Kazakhstan does not insist on practising only one religion. Moreover, it is clearly stated in the Constitution, and the government, Assembly of Peoples in Kazakhstan support every other religion, culture and is given a voice to second various initiatives regarding questions related to their activities. So I completely disagree when I hear that we are an Islamic country (especially from locals). It does not mean that I am against Islam; what it means is that I am for a free society. Once you open the borders- geographical, mental, etc- you can't stop information flow that influences people's minds.
- My favourite band Coldplay disappointed me today: majority of their lyrics are desperate. But I still love them. Especially Trouble in a Latino style and Gravity.
- My workload in the next 3 months slightly changes my year plan :D
- At least I have answered one question out of 3 I had for myself this week. The questions are:
1. What am I best at? (Not good, not ok, but BEST!)
2. What am I deeply passionate about? (This question is rather difficult for me as I know what I am passionate about. But as this question correlates with 2 other questions it challenges my mind. I even feel I will go crazy if I do not define the PASSION :)
3. What is my economic engine? (Oh, another difficult question. I haven't had a chance to think of it in details)
- Finally, I am back to my normal healthy condition: mind is clear, will is identified, and love to life springs in all directions.

Viva la vida!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Surprise of my 189 day

Indeed, I had just surprised myself: I had just conceived that Talent Management (TM) work I do in AIESEC is adorable! How this came to my mind I have no idea. But today I had a very TM oriented day: a few chats in a row with AIESEC in Puerto Rico, in Russia, in New Zealand, with Local Committees here in Latvia on current activities: Member and Exchange Recruitment, initiatives of TMU, lots of spreadsheets, etc. Additionally, I am preparing another training on HR for AIESEC in Riga members; yesterday I held a session on Creative Teaching for incoming interns for a business oriented project Your Idea Wanted, hosting online education is on since Sep 2009, and on , and on , and on...


So, thank you to Google for making my life confused/user-freindly/easy-oriented/dependent/full of docs and videos and everything.


Thank you to my playlists that are being updated every day.


Thank you to the coffee machine that gives me strong coffee. Though not that much good as in Index cafe in Riga or in those coffee places at home.


Thank you to the interns who already used good education resources for their forthcoming school activities.


Thank you to the candle that warms me up. It's still cold at home. Hm, home :) In Riga :)

Friday, February 12, 2010

Universal things

Questions that were brought up recently in a conversation with one of my Latvian friends:
- What was the first thing that made you smile when you arrived here?
Me: Shining Daugava river through the bus's window and seagulls waking me up in sunny warm mornings.
- What then made you first time sad or disappointed?
Me: Me shining and smiling on the bus, and people with grey and unhappy and concerned glances at me.
- Have you already had homesickness?
Me: Not so much. I miss home sometimes, especially some food like horse meat, mum's tea (only my mum does the best tea ever for me!), coffee places and my friends, and time we used to spend there together, lots of sun and people's warmth, mountains of Almaty, autumn of Almaty, my lovely parks and my teaching field.
- What do you like about Latvia?
Me: The language. Karums deserts- this is one of the most delicious dairy products I've eaten ( and I'm a huge fan of dairy products! So far I love youghurts of Food Masters in Almaty, fruit milk I found in Rotterdam's shops, Karums deserts here in Latvia- yes!), Lido restaurant/cafe chain with its folk music.
- What do you dislike about Latvia?
Me: I can't answer this question. People always find excuses for things that aren't done properly and find whom to blame. So, this is a never end answer.
- You said you are now feeling culture shock. How did you understand it?
Me: I've noticed I became being annoyed everytime: this is not done, that needs careful attention and inputs from others, and everyone says it's not important, it's not a priority. And it irritated me. People do changes when they do them, not talk about them. It was not for a long time, or maybe it is still going on. So I've noticed I'm being negative. And it's one of the things I do not accept in life- negativism. I took a few days off in my mind, and provided myself with a plesant environment. Even on the "grey" bus. With grey glances at me. With grey sky in the mornings and cold room that pushes me to a hot shower. So I'm creating happiness for myself, and I keep the situation under control.
- What have you done so far in AIESEC in Latvia that makes you proud?
Me: Young members to whom we have provided a platform for their personal growth. Members who write back to me and say they enjoy their internships in different countries, and that this is one of the best 'occasions' in their lives. Sugar cubes that I receive from national conferences that prove me I have one of the best jobs ever at the age of 24. The teams I work in nationally, internationally. Impact that we do in AIESEC is indescribable.
- What is your next step after AIESEC in Latvia?
Me: Again, I cannot answer this question. Firslty, because I never know what happens next minute, though of course I predict and plan, but sometimes there are some slight changes in my plans :) Secondly, no matter what I do after my term in AIESEC in Latvia it will have a meaning. Whether it is business activity, diversifying my AIESEC experience, being back home or living in another country- anything, but it will be done with a purpose. Plus, I am still hungry for challenges and want to be in the organisation another year. Just be open, that's it.
- So how long are you planning to live like this? What about starting a family- you are in that age when you need to be a mother.
Me: Well, I do not necessarily need to be in some particular age to be a mother or to start a family. Family will come when it is time for a husband and kids to appear, and when you are ready to take responsibility for them.
- Kids? How many do you want? Probably one in this market economy?
Me: No, one child is boring and inefficient. He might grow up a selfish lonely boy/girl. Two kids substitute their parents in the society. Let's say we cover the budget by zero :) Three children is a bit better because they benefit the society with one more additional person (meaning that two other cover their parents as economic man power). But from a mother's perspective two kids may create aliance and another might feel as an outsider. So four kids for me will be minimum optional 'number'. 6 family members is a good number: we can play domestic football in the garden, or basketball on the court; kids' war/peace aliances can exist but they will exist in pairs, latest child can longer stay with us, parents whereas others will be feeling too much independent to live with parents. Youth maximalism :) So, four kids for me would be ideal, I think. Of course, the more the better, my husband and I will just need to make sure we provide our family with basic needs in education for instance. Plus, I'd really want to adopt a boy or a girl one day. It's my dream.
- What will you do today to remember this day?
Me: I will call my mum and say how much I love her, and what she has done the best in the world for her children. I will write a thank you not to one of my friends. And I will be more positive. Even if it is cold in a flat.
I am so curious about the future. But more curious about the present.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

185

The day when I understood I am having/going through/experiencing a culture shock. Finally. It happened.
185 days I am in Latvia- in the heart of Baltics as this country is usually described. The country that sings. The country that I cannot describe just because I cannot find an accurate word to fix it in my memory.
Do not remember that theoretical stuff about Cultural shock, but there is a phase where you start disliking the environment you are living in, and it is one of the most unpleasant and mb painful ones. I think I have just stepped into this phase.
It's not funny at all as I really really hate when I dislike something, because if I sense I really really dislike something- I change it! However, here are some things I can't - yes, I simply cannot- change! And I don't know what to do: sit and patiently wait when this shock is over, or go and change things. I prefer changes to silence. But not in my current case.
...The only good side I see about this shock is that I understand: it happens with everyone who lives in another country for some time. My first shock was when I returned to Kazakhstan after a short summer vacation in India. That was very much painful: being at home and facing alien feelings. Well, at least I had my family nearby who, not knowing what I felt, always were there for me. Here I don't have anyone I could talk to. Face to face, I mean. I've had chats in a row with my close friends. We still believe Universe DOES exist :) Because I've been thinking about them, they've been too last week. And we randomly start skyping with each other. And I feel relieved.

Thank you.